I had this incredible conversation with Melanie Curtin about my journey with plant medicines and psychedelics. We went deep on what these experiences have meant for my own healing and how they can be used as powerful tools for growth when approached with the right intention and container.
I shared some of my most vulnerable moments on medicine, particularly with ayahuasca and combo. One story I told was about sitting on my back with this grapevine above me during a psilocybin journey, feeling the medicine literally move through my body like a vine wrapping around my heart and just gently, lovingly pulling it open. Those experiences of complete surrender, of feeling held and supported, they've changed me at a level that's hard to put into words.
We talked about resistance and how some of my most challenging trips became my most healing ones. There was this night with ayahuasca where nothing was happening for me, ceremony after ceremony, and I realized I was angry, actually whining at the medicine, at the feminine for not showing up for me. The moment I stopped resisting and said, "I'm ready, meet me," the medicine hit and took me exactly where I needed to go.
The thing I really wanted to get across is that these medicines aren't recreational party drugs. They're powerful healing tools that need to be approached with respect, proper guidance, and community. I came into them through men's work with people who knew how to hold space, and that made all the difference. Whether it's the physical purging with ayahuasca or the complete vulnerability of needing help in ceremony, these experiences have taught me how to surrender and actually be with whatever's present.
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